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2007-10-04T19:35:00.000+08:00

due to a lack of resources in penning his thoughts, the author has decided to end this blog till further notice.

2007-09-13T19:20:00.000+08:00

today is the third consecutive day that i'm stuck at home.
had my wisdom ops on tuesday, and the mc is till next tuesday. and that means im supposed to stay at home for a good 7 days. yes, i guess it's good to have a 'block leave' after such a long time (it's the first i had this year), but den staying at home is really boring. kinda reminded me off the sars period where everyone was to be quarantined at home for i dunno, 2 wks or so? not to mention that my face looks so swollen and puffy. like really bloated. and the medicine thats supposed to reduce the infammation doesnt seem to work. sheesh.
but luckily, my com's back after it crashed nearly a week ago. so everyday is just eating, watching tv, reading and surfing. really kinda boring. have to wait till monday where i can breathe some fresh air when i go for the checkup.
till then, hopefully people will come online more often to keep me company.. haha.

2007-08-19T22:33:00.000+08:00

the champions are in the relegation zone. wad an irony. ferguson must have miscalculated. or it's the curse of the charity shield. but anyway, its a depressing sunday evening. sucks.

another week passed. slowly but surely. the weekend was alright i guess. spent most of the time at home. i guess i am getting lazy. friday night was not too bad a chillout in my opinion, maybe just a lil tired. and the jam at esplanade was horrible. horrible. saturday night was at wala for a short while, before heading for mahjong. overnight was crazy. 8 hrs. i swear i wasnt thinkin straight by that time. first time i din lose that much. and today was just recuperating. other than visiting wei, who had a fracture.

should i go australia n hk both in dec? that would be helluva month, and helluva money to be spent. sians. i shd stop finding problems for myself.

stop.

2007-08-04T19:48:00.000+08:00

my blog's becoming a dengue infested area according to lide, being stagnant for too long and breeding mosquitoes. finally had some time to keep this a safe and healthy place. if there are still mosquitoes buzzing ard your area, pls call 1800-X-DENGUE. tan kheng hua will come teach you how to keep your place dengue free in 10 minutes.

anyway main point. been reading this book called the kama sutra of business (its clean btw) and i must say i've been quite inspired. actually i realised there are more values to take away than business management, but nonetheless i think its one of the better books i read recently. shall share a point on the blog today, as part of the plan to prevent stagnancy and mozzie breeding. afterall, you bleed for the country, not the mozzies. haha.

i think at one stage of life or another, one would ask himself this question: what is happiness? or how should one live to be happy? on the surface, it may seem a pretty easy question. being happy is doing things you like, hanging out with people you like, etc etc. however, i feel that the key to happiness, or happyness some call it, is contentment. being contented, void of all wants, desires, cravings would make you happy.

whenever you have wants or desires, you would have to find means and ways to satisfy it, which can be quite painful during the process. the more you want it, and the more you try, and if you failed to get wad you want, you end up being sad, hurt and the like. the examples are countless, thus i guess i need not elaborate much. thus only when one is contented can you be happy with life. this reminds me of smth we always hear in army, which come to think of it now, is quite true. don't compare. cos no matter wad, there will definitely be other people whose life are better than yours. life is never really fair to begin with. but if you were fair to yourself, you would not try so hard to achieve unachievable objectives which you end up being the one who suffers. of course, we are not disencouraging people not to be enterprising, but at times, just be contented.

life, afterall, is a zero sum game. you gain some, you lose some. it happens to everyone, no matter how fortunate your life is.

2007-06-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

realised i haven blogged in a while.
not that there's nothing to blog about. there's stuff like korn's commissioning, driving practical, grandpa's death anniversary and such, budden just dun have feeling to blog. but anyway these 2 wks were quite on the whole though. boss not around, so relax a bit. still worked but not as stressful..

yup. decided to blog today. cos i feel like it. haha. had a pretty shag and injury-prone day today. but its quite a well spent saturday i must say. actually it started off with thursday evening which felt like friday evening. seldom go out on weekdays, end up very tired during work on friday. lucky no one is around. haha! anw good to see 69 pple, at this really secret-ty place called secret garden. yup pple like bum n cliff whom i haven seen in a while, and also the same few 69 pple whom i met quite frequently these few weeks but never really seem to get bored with.

as for today, had soccer in the morning. i think brendan is the missing link! tag n nic n brendan plus me seems promising. den rushed all the way to ecp. i really dun like the east sia. i feel quite hopeless there. cant navigate by myself. met the daji pple, including thongkent n xiangmin whom i haven seen in ages. really ages. den also tried rollerblading. although i iceskated once but that was 5 yrs ago! and needless to say i fall until i lost count already. have this huge bruise plus cut on my right elbow now. (maybe can attn c? haha) literally learned the meaning of standing up again after you fall. think i managed to get the rough idea, but still not confident enough. but will def try again if there is a chance. have to fall more den you will learn i guess? haha. finally, just came back from section dinner. talking abt life in our diff units was really entertaining, not forgetting reminisicing our sispec life. think everyone have their own share of joy and pain, but ultimately, we still gonna ORD loh! hmmm, shd meet up with the signals pple soon too. maybe even the bmt pple, though i think i dun rmb some of them le. haha.

2007-06-01T22:57:00.000+08:00

do not judge a book by its cover.
but without a presentable cover, will you read the book?
or do you read the book cos of its rave reviews?
or, maybe even, the book just happen to be opened and you just happen to read it?
some people dun read books.
some people love to read.
what type of book do you enjoy reading?
adventure, horror, romance, etc etc.
i wanna read a good book soon.

ps. i have no idea wad i am writing actually.

2007-05-27T22:17:00.001+08:00

stressful week!
from monday to friday i was practically busy all day long. many at times i even worked with a certain amt of fear within. this wk my boss was suddenly very displeased with me and my assistant. apparently he felt we had difficulty working tgt. and had repeatedly mention he wanna speak to us. was really quite taken back especially when he spoke with a tense and stern face on tues. i was totally stunned. i hope things will be better in office this wk. at least i will be around all the time, so shdnt have problem. he's qt pissed that my assistant have to keep asking me stuff while i was outta office.
den thursday was the air force gig. sucks. i was totally irritated by the organising party and the crowd. they simply had no respect for musicians. period.
the weekend, however was quite interesting though, albeit tiring. din sleep as much as i wanted to. =( but it was quite fun in the sense that we took funny photos at raffles hotel at qianyi's hall production on friday, zhanwei came back and joined us for 69 outing and kajiao-ed khai tgt on saturday and finally the k session today. really quite shag out though. lolx.
please let next wk be fine!

2007-05-18T18:58:00.000+08:00

spent the past week in camp. haven stayed in for a long time, and i must say it brings mixed emotions to me. staying in is actually quite fun cos you get to talk crap with one another in the bunk, relate to the past on common experiences good or bad, play soccer, go out for supper!!, and even play psp (yes, now my camp can bring psp. so gd!) however, i did not have the luxuries of most of them, as most of the time is spent outside. spent outside feeding mosquitoes. now my limbs are full of scratching scars.

for the first day, i tot it would be a peaceful day as i had nothing much till 5pm. man i was wrong. we set off at a little past 5, travelled to numerous locations, back and forth camp, before my boss decides to come back to rest at 415am. den he said, "lets meet again at 530." AM. cool. so after 1 hr of rest we set off again! stayed around elephant hill area till abt 9, before we finally got to rest till 12. after that it was on standby again, doing all the what nots.

second night we set off once again at night, this time we hopped from areas in lim chu kang,kranji dam, etc. wonder why my boss liked to do trg visits at night. so we reached back to camp around 530, and immediately prepared for coa's arrival at 6. only when they all left did we managed to rest.

and just as i tot my bioclock was officially tilted upside down, the next few days turned into day visits instead. had a hard time trying to sleep man.

but the time spent w the platoon was gd man, like when we were packing stores this morning, the feeling was actually quite good. something you cant get from the div side. i guess we have to give and take yeah.

okie thats all for this week's updates. glad to be home.

2007-05-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder whats the point of working hard through sispec, get the 3 stripes and being a spec. to command? to lead? specs are always the ones stuck in the middle, sandwiched between officers and men. and so you think you are a spec? with pride you lead? how wrong.

felt like a failure this evening. cant even control 1 men. 1 pathetic, m*&^%$#@#$ing man. wad trying my utmost best to tell him to reflect his performance thus far. does that sound very disappealing to you? just becos "we are not in command school" does not equal to you can do whatever you want. and it really irks me, that sentence. while i try putting everything in a nice manner, all that i get is sarcasm, angst-filled remarks, thinking that you are smarter. the fact is that you never listen.

you never f&*%ing listen.

2007-05-10T16:07:00.000+08:00

wah i'm gonna die of boredom soon i swear.
dunno why today seemed to be quite free. thought this week is prep exercise week, so should be quite busy. mebbe the past few days did a lot le, so comparatively today has less work. feeling sleepy but have to stay in office! zzz.. really no life.
oh anw am currently waiting for the syf results. very disappointed that i cant go today to see them perform. had i known today was gonna end up this way i would have taken off. =( but apparently from those who were present they had no major flops, so hopefully the good news would come soon. =) [update: we managed to retain our GwH. well done grand juniors. haha this makes me sound old. ]
also, i've been blog-surfing today. was quite interesting when you search for blogs when using myspace. den you will find a lot of other blog's that are related to the blog you were looking for. and you have absolutely no idea how they are related. trespassed some blogs as a result too. yingyi, charmaine, hcband... just to name a few. paiseh eh. oh and i realised bay has a blog too! or was i that i'm too ignorant? haha. anw this goes to show how bored i am.
Friday pls come soon!

2007-05-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

its the weekend again..
this week alot of stuff happened. labour day, being sick but still have to go work on wed, MC on thurs, and sis' bday surprise on friday... blah blah. just too many things already.
today was sorta a breather cos can finally sleep better and longer. few things to blog.

have anyone watched the ch 8 9pm show lately? the 'xin fu shuang ren chuang'.. pretty interesting. they always quote some funny phrases to 'shoot' men and women alike. anw today i found out that it is quite true! haha i realised that women are very sensitive.. (or maybe its just that i found out too late =P), but some things that you think is alright might seem to be very wrong to them.. which is the scary part. and what's scarier, they wont tell you about that. which i think thats why there are often misunderstandings that led to quarrels and such. not that i have anything against them, but the bottomline is: always be more sensitive to women.

next, i spent practically my whole saturday with hcco. haha decided not to go for soccer since haven really recovered and nic not going as well. alot of seniors came back i must say. there's even a 98 batch coming back to watch the rehearsal.. hcco must have some charm or smth, in order to get so many seniors to come back to lend their support.
anyway the fun part comes after the rehearsal. we went for daji dinner, with nic n eugene. haha. wasted a lot of time trying to find a place to eat. first we went to venezia to buy ice-cream (juniors, you ate our ice-cream so you all better get your honours!), den we eventually ended up at kap. was quite funny cos we played all the lame tricks that you can think of during gatherings, and cos jiahong wasnt quite our age, so most of the things he also dunno. heh! im glad the current batch is quite nice to play with, just that the guys are abit quiet and shy and the girls are more outspoken (note i din use talkative) and less shy. haha. was thinking we can organise a big daji outing after syf.. =]
budden as a result of the dinner i pangsehed the class outing. feel very bad, especially cos haven seen the class for quite some time le. the last time was the cny dinner, and half the class wasnt there... haha how sad. anw next sat's marc's bday, hopefully can get the class out again to celebrate bah.

lately, i realise i've gotta do a lot of explanations. to others, and also to myself. guess there's something really wrong with my actions. others can dun understand me, but what about myself? this is bad eh.. i must really think carefully before doing something in the future. and dun be misled by others. must have my own stand. yup.

2007-04-29T22:27:00.000+08:00

a busy weekend!
just reached home not long ago. usually sundays wont go out too late since tmr still have work. today went ahead with plans to go ecp w lide's church pple. i think i become chaota-ed. and its kinda pain now.. but its quite fun. been ages since i went to the beach i think. building sandcastles, playing typical beach games w 'kids'. why i say 'kids' is becos lide's church group have a lot of pple who look younger than their actual age, which is kinda scary. there is this 21yo girl who looked like a sec 1. seriously. haha. i think hanging ard with young pple makes you younger. and you will not be reminded of turning 20 soon. hah.
after that decided to go play soccer, which was a rather bad decision, as the pitch condition was seriously bad and i din bring boots. and wad you got in return was dirty slippers and feet. when my 3 days old teva sank into the mud, my heart sank too. haha. and after tt went chompchomp to grab a bite and i took the bus in a wrong direction, thus i came home so late. the roundabout at serangoon gardens was really weird. the same busstop, the bus 73 can either go to tp or go amk. and no one told me anything abt it. i hate it when i need to take more than an hr to reach home. grr.
but ytd was better i felt. did some meaningful stuff, like going back to give my juniors some advice for syf. still trying to work on some problems w them. somehow when females play percussion, they have less of the seh feeling, though im not against them or wad. but i guess they shd be able to make the cut. the last week shd be when they peak, i hope.
den went for the match at cck at 5. we came back from 3-0 down to 3-3. could have won the game, but anger got the better of us. the koreans were playing rather rough, which made us lose our cool. haha and i got my first yellow. =P
best part of ytd would be the jamming at ken's place. we tried time is running out and high and dry. time is running out is super nice. muse is damn cool lar! haven jammed for months and it feels good that on the first session you sorta got most parts of the songs rite. hopefully we can produce a good gig on 24th.
till den, we look forward to labour day. =)

2007-04-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

this is a tagyuxiang inspired song, or rap rather.

5...6...7...8...
everyday i think about O-R-D,
thinking about it makes me very happy.
no more seeing all those lao auntiee,
and no one will ask me to pao4 kopi.
ever since i went for wallaby,
i get to see the true side of our army.
all the nsf look so pity,
looking at the nsmen jia roti.
wandering their minds out to the sea,
when will we ever get to O-R-D?
nowadays a lot of guard duty,
weekend cannot go home watch manyoo chelsea.
when exercise comes lagi more busy,
sometimes even have to work OT.
even worse if you kena a bad PC,
think he big f*** like a big LG,
when actually he's just a nothing only.
as the date is near people fall sick easily,
its so obvious they just wanna take mc.
actually i think just let it be,
sekali one day we strike 'lottery',
and safsa will invite us to play rugby!
actually i think im quite lucky,
dunno why can become a secretary,
every night can go home watch tv,
maybe even go zouk pom pi pi!
but who wont wanna O-R-D,
save some money and go uni,
where you get to see pretty lady!

[disclaimer: this lil rap is created for the sake of pure entertainment of the blogger and the viewers. there are no intentions whatsoever to inflict any insult or hurt to any person or organisation.]

2007-04-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to update, just that today happened to be my mum and lk's bday, so happy birthday to both of them (though i doubt they will see this. ha) went for dental today, orchard seemed rather quiet on a wednesday afternoon. where's everybody? every shop i went into i was the only customer, and i will be followed by the salesperson. super irritating. ah i saw this super nice air foce 1 today, the brown baltimore edition. really tempted!

2007-04-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

sometimes, some things are better left unknown. i'm very sure of it. and to say i'm not affected would be a complete lie. i mean, who wont? but what irks me most is that words are being put in my mouth when i do have even have a clue what's going on. somebody's gonna owe me an explanation. i don't who, i don't know when and i don't know how.

and suddenly everyone around me seemed cold to me today. my boss, my dy, the freaking chief clerk that always give me trouble, and even my bestie.

hope the weekend will be better. ah at least i din go home alone today. could it be a form of comfort? or am i deceiving myself?

and life goes on. =)

2007-04-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

its been a while!

haven touched blogger for quite long liao, till i realised that even the class blog's been revamped, so its time to at least write smth. heh.

since im talking abt the class blog, i guess i shall touch on hwachong for a lil bit. does anyone knows that the sidegate has been equipped with the sensor thingy that allows you to open the gate from inside even when its locked? wonder who's the smart dude who suggested it, why din suggest it earlier! but one thing is that in order to enter, you've gotta wait outside and pray that someone is leaving school. the other day i waited for around 15mins and i think i looked like some suspicious character prowling outside the school compound. haha.
maybe they shd just employ one more uncle chong to do guard duty at the side gates. haha. or mebbe can use the councillors. haha ok that sounds evil.

anyway, nothing much have changed to the school, other than maybe more class benches around (due to more classes i think). however if you walk to the lt area you will realise that the chinese high side has got more stuff. this whole new admin block seems quite cool. i heard the swimming pool side's got a sports complex. and theres 2 street courts now! but most of the ex students still use the old one.

been to a couple of co practices over the past weeks to take a look, since syf is round the corner. now hcco is using the mph, instead of lt3. kinda sad, cos think lt3 is cosier and percussion have got the whole backstage to ourselves. now hcco is like made up of solely nyco and tchsco, which i think is quite sad. unlike our times where we had ppl from dunman, rv. a lil more cosmopolitan. and the current batch of percussion is made of up mainly the ny girls. god knows wad happened to my tchs juniors. but they ny girls are quite good lar. just need to be more confident. hopefully they will not let us down!

2007-03-22T13:18:00.000+08:00

Fate can twist the both of us, it's not up to you to choose
Dont you know? Dont you know?

You can run and while away
But you both could win or lose
Dont you know? Dont you know?

In how many places did you let your mind go free in?
In how many worlds did you live?

And you said all the world was dreamin
And you said all the world was scheming without you
Without you
But you'll never know

I can try to read your mind, but it's so hard to tell
Is it right? Is it right?

Such a mess I see inside, but that's because you're here
By my side, dont you know?

In how many places did you let your mind go free in?
In how many worlds did you live?

And you said all the world was dreamin
And you said all the world was scheming without you
Without you
But you'll never know

All the lives and all the worlds
All the boys and all the girls
All the lives and all the worlds
All the boys and all the girls

And you said all the world was dreamin
And you said all the world was scheming without you
Without you
But you'll never know
And you said all the world was dreamin
And you said all the world was scheming without you
Without you.

finally found these lyrics/ support homegrown music. =)

2007-03-04T13:13:00.000+08:00

Turn away

If you could get me a drink

Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded

Call my aunt Marie

Help her gather all my things

And bury me in all my favorite colors,

My sisters and my brothers, still,

I will not kiss you,

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,

'Cause I'm awful just to see

'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,

Oh, my agony,

Know that I will never marry,

Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo

But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living

And I just hope you know

That if you say

Goodbye today

I'd ask you to be true

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

suddenly i thought of my grandpa on this nice sunday morning.

2007-02-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

so chinese new yr is over again. maybe not completely, but more or less i think. all the anticipation seems to die down pretty fast. the process of anticipation is always good i guess. counting down and stuff. den when the actual chu yi comes, you suddenly realise its not a good deal after all.

so the holiday is over. could have had an extended holiday, if not for the stupid COS who recommended me for the PA post. still undecided if i should go, but i guess most probably i'll try to stay. for someone who is 8 months plus away from ORD-ing =), its better to stay with the familiar pple and not go and waste time trying to learn new stuff again. especially if your OC and PC wants you to stay. besides, taiwan's tempting. heh. but nonetheless, have to report back to work tmr where the rest are having fun celebrating their new yr still. =X

2007-02-13T19:33:00.000+08:00

was listening to both of linkin park's albums just now, since my sis started digging out my cds for god knows wad reason.
one day, hopefully we can perform a LP song.

2007-02-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

there's a story that goes like this.
once a upon a time, there is this group of mice living in a hole at the corner of a kitchen. life was good as they never had to worry about food. every night, they just simply sneak out into the kitchen at will to get food. however, one day the owner of the house brought home a ferocious cat, whose scream (or wadever you call it) scares the sh*t out of the mice. the mice become worried. with the cat around, how are they able to get their food? thus they had an emergency meeting to discuss this critical issue. hours and hours passed as different mice came up to present their suggestions on how to deal with the cat. all the ideas were rejected, however, until the last mice came and suggested that they put a bell around the cat's neck, thus notifying them when the cat is around, which then allows them to sneak into the kitchen to steal food. everyone shrieked in delight, as they thought it was a wonderful idea. but then comes a question. who is going to put the bell onto the cat's neck?
hmm. the moral of the story?
anyway, what a nice way to remind me that there is still 9 months to ORD. 273 days to be exact.
nicee.

2007-01-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

another post abt work.

had a 'heated' meeting today, among the pc and the specs, as well as the whole platoon, where we discussed among the issues we've been facing at work. a good oppotunity to thrash things out in my opinion, and i think we brought about quite good points this time.

the private meeting b/w our new pc, which happens to be junjie from 6c, and the specs was quite entertaining. we kept shooting our ps until he like have no choice but to surrender. i think sk really had a lot of pride being a spec, so we kept kb abt our old pc and how f up his commanding are, and how the dark side is prevailing within the company and wad we shd do to change this for our future generation.. suddenly there is this strong sense of justice raging itside. we know we are trying to push a huge piece of rock up a steep slope with our barely present strength, we know its unlikely the rock will move an inch, but we are trying anw. not for ourselves, but for our future specs.

haha sound abit weida in my opinion. mebbe the pc is right. we shd just be happy, count our days, and look forward to ORD. but every one is preaching, have a fulfilling NS experience. how ironic.

at the end of the day, we may be back to square one. but at least we tried.

ah, and it doesnt help that the female stalker once again intrude our meeting as if she is from my platoon. someone please help us!

2007-01-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

today, let's talk about this girl who is driving me, or rather the whole company crazy. sadly, she's literally doing so.

recently the company had this female spec who freshly graduated from SI, so initially everyone was kinda excited, for the obvious reason. however, soon after everyone became kinda freaked out by her.

last week was inspection week, which was deemed rather crucial in our efforts in defending our best signal unit and best combat support unit titles. and unfortunately i was doing duty for the day. naturally i was hoping nothing goes wrong for the day. i told her to sign out the keypress for her room, and man i was really shocked when she started writing stupid stuff in the book! and she thought it was fun. seriously i was damn shocked. and many of the specs present were either laughing away or mouthing vulgarities.

den she began her stalking acts. first veggie was the victim, where she followed him practically everywhere he goes. this week, she started popping by other's bunk for fun. she even watched my uip guys do their field pack inspection while she herself was undergoing uip herself. certainly her ps have no idea wad to do to her. my uip guys were complaining non stop to me last night. and her new target now apparently is my ps. she follows him when he goes around the company line, where he goes playing soccer and today she evened followed him to the guardhouse when he is doing duty! totally unbelievable.

well, i guess she maybe just trying to make a couple friends in the company, but the way she does it is really uncomfortable. everyone is having no privacy and are afraid she might just pop up by the window anytime, scaring the sh*t outta us sometimes.

so you think its shiok to have female colleagues in ya company? well, maybe its time to think again.

2007-01-21T11:23:00.000+08:00

finally. it's over.
the hilton gig wasnt really a big success i would say. its inevitable to feel nervy in our first gig, especially in hilton w professional sound crews. but i tot overall it was still quite alright, albeit there being room for improvement. must wait for the video to come out den see how. =P i think we probably enjoyed more during our rehearsals, but according to the vocals, the audience enjoyed it pretty much. so its okie. =] and thankfully we had a good vocal, which sorta covered for some of our shortfalls, esp the cold aircon causing the guitarist to be unable to pluck normally. dunno who ah. hahahah. but anw i think i can foresee this band continuing. at least not like the 'miscarriage' i had w the previous one. our vocal is good, the keyboardist makes our music sound fuller. now for me to listen more and improve.
look forward to the next!

2007-01-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

after all the bad sh*t that happened during the week, boy am i glad friday was to be a happy one. at least to me, i felt that way. this tinge of innocence coming back to me. i guess sometimes we all need some kinda innocence in our lives, dont we?
anw mixing w a bunch of young pple definitely helps, beats facing those old fags everyday rite. the past 2 days been teaching ncc cadets and conducting the badge test for them. been a nice experience i guess. at least when you speak pple are listening attentively. the feeling is great. and you feel even better when they do well for the test. that shows that you teach well rite?? haha. for a moment i was aspired to be a teacher. so mebbe if i cant find a job next time, i shall apply to be one.
went back to school in the evening. well, always feels good to be back. its like gg back home. regardless of whether it rains or not. qt many 04 pple went back too, which was quite nice i guess. past by ajc and rjc today. seems so cold and empty. haha! and the nicest thing was, my grand juniors actually remembers me, and that i crashed their orientation in rv uni. gosh i myself din remember that lor. haha.
all good things come to an end. not so fast please.

2007-01-10T22:12:00.000+08:00

i was about to rant at my own personal private online space about my frustrated untolerable private life in an unwilling environment when i remembered what chian mentioned some time ago about blogging on topics related to certain sensitive issue.
"you can be charged", he says.
oh, how great that is. so much for freedom.

2007-01-07T21:55:00.000+08:00

wah i can see dust accumulating here already. =p

anyways, first entry of the new yr. 2007. the ORD yr. and today happens to be 7th Jan. exactly one yr ago, a small boy sailed through the blue seas as thousands others do, filled with uncertainty, reluctancy and mebbe a lil bit of nervousness into a god-forsaken place called tekong.
today, after one yr inside the force, having been thru exercises like wallaby, endurance, nutcracker(which is now outta bslc syllabus, thus explaining the declining influence of specialists) and the like, this boy have adapted in the green island. although he may not be a commissioned officers like many of his friends are, he is definitely proud of the 3 stripes he's donning.

and most importantly, he is happy cos its 10 more months to ORD!

2006-12-22T23:29:00.000+08:00

feeling sian. this wk's been a sian week at work. partially due to the rain i guess. dampen everyone's mood. and there are pple who like rain. like kl whom i met on the rainy tue night on nights out and she was telling me that she like to stand in the rain and get drenched. smth liddat. anw we went to watch lide's performance in town. den had a late dinner there. was qt a nice trip i guess. spending time w 2 gd friends. =) den the rest of the wk's been basically doing lotsa admin work. i guess i startin to become more strict w my men le. but still i haven knock anyone down yet. heh. today was kinda disapointment for me, cos i prepared my store nicely throughout the week for the co inspection and bloody hell he did not even take a look at it. actually its mixed feelings lar. cos i also scared later he find fault w my store den more jialat. other than that, this week's been qt panicky too. cos i risked 3 extras by not cutting my hair. thankfully never got caught. den also cancelled my tuition ytd to watch some jap drama on youtube. haha i must be mad. oh this week i also received a superman shirt from kenny for my bday. =D den lastly went out today also. abit sian lar i must confess since like its the first time in qt a while that i cant find any common topic w friends. i cant possibly tok abt army and i really know nuts abt uni. shrugs. so its really kinda tiring esp when i had work in the morning. but i guess its fun seeing pple grow fat. =P

2006-12-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

turning 19. or rather turned. anw doesnt seemed any different from any other day to me, probably becos i've been out for 6 consecutive days already. so today just sorta concludes my leave period, though i still have birthday off tmr and im still going out just to chill w my bestie. heh.
this week's been great. met up w many many pple, especially today, cos its been a looong time since i saw the 69 peeps. though i caught ethel in town on tuesday while she's gg to work. haha. so i guess its been a pretty fruitful week of leave for me. still kinda sian to go back camp tmr. im in a holiday mood!
anw as usual must thank the following pple whom wished me well. (in some particular order) my lil sister, xueting, lijun, pearlyn, weisi, eunice, cynwell!, dexter, ibnu!, yonghui, jianmin, wenjie, peiling, jonathan, kenny, cliff, lays, ann, huishan, yusin, pc low, seb!, michelle n ps. the exclamation mark defines unexpected pple. thanks for the sms-es =)
also thanks to pms for the exotic present from num. =P as well as lk for the many many things she gave me. the chocs from my cousins. the ferraris and chocs from my bestie. and the shirt from g5.
nelly appreciates it. =]

2006-12-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

Shed a tear 'cause I'm missin' you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt
You're in my heart now

Said, woman, take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said, sugar, make it slow
And we come together fine
All we need is just a little patience(patience)
Mm, yeah

I sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now
I'll wait, dear
Sometimes I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love
There's one more thing to consider

Said, woman, take it slow
And things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said, sugar, take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes
To make it,
We won't fake it,
I'll never break it
'cause I can't take it

(whistle)
...little patience, mm yeah, mm yeah
need a little patience, yeah
just a little patience, yeah
some more patience, yeah
need some patience, yeah
could use some patience, yeah
gotta have some patience, yeah
all it takes is patience,
just a little patience
is all you need

I been walkin' the streets at night
Just tryin' to get it right
Hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like
Being stuck in the crowd
And the streets don't change
But baby the name
I ain't got time for the game
Cause I need you
Yeah, yeah, but I need you
Oo, I need you
Whoa, I need you
Oo, all this time

2006-12-08T11:40:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i last blogged, 20 days to be precise. and man, alot of things can indeed happen in 20 days. this morning i realised that my house door bell's been changed, my eating utensils changed and the cold storage where i got all my snacks from has been revamped. even the neighbourhood mama shop's got a new look. everything's changing, whether its for the better, well i definitely hope so.

but nonetheless, its feels helluva great to be back home. the rapturous applause that resonated round me when our plane touched down ytd night probably echoed the same sentiments. =) wallaby is definitely an experience i must say, mixed with good and bad. but i guess its the bad that made the good shine even more. when i was back in the cp facing hundreds of crabs a day (not forgetting the shining one star), fretting over when i will ever be free of the clutches of the [*]. it was the people around that made my 11-day outfield better. people like ken, whom served the [*] no.1 guy while i served the no.2, helping me to temporarily convert to become a pa, people like chiam and naresh, whom we talk cock together just so that time passes faster, the 1 nsmen whom gave me thoughtful advice for my future, staff [*] who is ever helpful, not forgetting my OC and MAJ [*], whom tried to help me so that i can do my job smoother. many thanks to them.

the R&R, though shortlived, but was rather enjoyable in my opinion. rocky's not like other metropolitan australian cities, but rather its surrounded by beautiful sceneries of series of mountains, plains, pinetree forests and also the vast boundless sea. i cant forget the feeling of standing at one of rocky's highest mountains, gazing down at the awesome view beneath my feet. its breathtaking. went for the heritage tour at some tourist hotspot, whether we get to ride horses and feed lambs, view their vintage buildings and automobiles. its qt enjoyable, especially with the company of the platoon. some of the guys visited the strip joint at night. i din go, but im not sure if i regretted it. =P but i definitely regretted getting wasted after the boys returned and the specs started playing games and drinking. the tequila was totally disgusting in my opinion. will never touch another shot again. i guess i will drink less in future. although i was still clear minded, but the feeling is terrible. so the advice is: dun drink unless necessary.

shall try to post some photos when i get hold of them. meanwhile its time to plan for the upcoming break. first stop: the ocs commissioning parade. hopefully the newly grads will become a good officer, treating their men with respect and not treat them like dirt. though majority of the officers in the army's fcuked up, i certainly hope they will follow their senior's footsteps to become an arrogant, incompetent, wayang bastard whom abuse their ranks and think they are all so almighty. heard that, marc and eugene? always keep the 7th core value in mind.

[*] - the above parts were censored due to security issues.

2006-11-18T18:53:00.000+08:00

time to blog!
D-Day H-Hr: 190945
Time left to D-Day H-Hr: 15 hrs approx.

haha i cant rmb how to write ops order alr! only learnt to write during sispec. alot of nitty gritty details i rmb. but well, sispec days are qt memorable. =)
so fast going to fly already. =( hopefully it will be as memorable as sispec! although the days are tough, thats wad makes it all the more memorable. not to forget the ties being forged. i just pray hard my days would not be just staring at the cos everyday den i will be qt contented. at least if you see ya other signal mates den the days will also pass faster. haha which reminds me of the circle of trust thingy.
anw ytd met up w my bestie. really appreciated her not pangseh-ing me despite being tired. i will try to find smth nice in aussie for ya! den this morning had a jamming session. first time since dunno when. pract wasnt good. its like v stagnant. budden i think there are 2 new zai musicians joining us soon, so hopefully the band can take flight there. =) they better be up when i return! haha.
den had soccer in the afternoon. played center mid and right mid today. less pressure for me in a sense. think i played ok, but the center of the pitch sucks, so ball control was rather hard. there's room for improvement! we create tons of chances but cant score, den they just scored with their only chance. luckily we managed to equalise. anw during post match we talked abt army life, den i realise actually i shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu. tag n kelvin also have whole week outfield next week, and their outfield includes fast march and crawlin and stuff. something i haven done in a looong time since sispec. den wendy even xiong. i heard during his brunei trip they swamp walk for hours and barely walked a km. hearing that actually made me less frustrated upon my situation. i am determined to do a good job at aussie now!
oh den thanks to laykhim and guan how for calling! lk even wanna meet me before i fly cos she is in the region. too bad im not at home. nevertheless thanx my mugger lover! haha it made me qt gandong for a while. =P
going to watch casino royale later, which probably sums up my short off period.
tmr onwards its gonna be work!

2006-11-17T12:59:00.000+08:00

updatesupdatesupdates.

hmm actually theres nothing much to update about. more will come when i return from wallaby i guess. haha den i will complain abt all the sh*t that i experienced there. currently im still like having an off break, though it will soon be over in no time, den all the hectic work will come in. haha the feeling now is almost about the same as waiting for enlistment, lotsa uncertainties, worries and doubts. only thing different is that now i have much more responsibility, which, depending on one, can be good or bad. still trying to find a way to make myself hyped up and sorta look forward to the trip though. but i guess i still need some time. hope the next 2 days will suffice.. must tune to the right mentality. haha. tmr's gonna be fun. think i will spent the whole day out den play until shiok shiok before i leave. ha!

gonna take my basic theory this afternoon. the first step towards driving. =)

2006-11-08T19:53:00.000+08:00

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'Coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free
Pray and believe

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here
In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here
When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

2006-11-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

today's a happy day!
at least better than the previous days in the week i guess. bad things keep appearing these days. sometimes really dunno if i deserved it. whether at work or at home. really cant stop bothering me. i need a break!
but anw the main point is i went to ntu today! haha my future school and i have never been there to take a real look since like 3 yrs ago during the percfest camp. was there for a trial for the new radio set. thankfully i chose to go ntu. at least it wont be as bored as places like lck.
ntu din really changed much. my impression was that it's about the same as when i been there the last time. hall 6 still the same. the heritage centre as well as the engine block or smth. where the lee smth nam library was located. places i went during one of the games i rmb. not bad. i dun mind the buildings being old or smth. cos it only serve to show the countless memories that pple had of that place. just like hwachong. small but cosy. haha.
one regret today though. and that is i cannot find nanyang business school after going round and round the campus. =(

yup. by dec everything will be fine.

2006-10-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

took my first medical leave today.
woke up to a terrible cough and breathlessness, so decided to get mc. rested and slept throughout the day i guess, the only other thing i did was to watch full house. quite a nice show. had a pretty boring monday i guess.
still have guard comd tmr, and another gate3 on sat. so basically my weekend's burnt as well. the thought of having to do guard duty irks me, not to mention 2 in a week. grrr.
i foresee an unhappy week ahead. bahhh.

2006-10-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

feeling grumpy.
besides the fact that early tmr morning i have to rush for camp, my mind's been preoccupied by other stuff throughout the weekend. really stressful. think i din really handle the thingy well, but i guess i've tried. its just too bad im never good at words.
well, i think if i were to follow my heart, den this isnt wad i really wanted. guess that moment of impulse really spoilt the whole thing. maybe its really good to take a break and start again. but i guess work probably wont allow me that much time to think and consider.

i've got the answer i wanted for the math question, but my method was wrong. will i get any marks for it?

2006-10-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

updates.

my nick reads "sending a mehmeh into a tiger's den" which literally means "song4 yang2 ru4 hu2 kou3" in chinese. i find that it aptly describe my precarious situation ahead in *beep* man. and i must admit that one is quite unlucky when you were spot on for a 1 in 12 chance to tio a sh*t job. (makes me wonder how come i always never tio singapore pools when the chances are 1 in 3 or smth.) anw like wad xuwei said, the off that i earned from *beep* probably wont be enough to cover the extras i get. but im more worried abt the verbal abuse part. past signallers under him come back a diff person. and they only recover some time later.

you reap what you sow?

and also i believe its high time i start to wake up and do stuff that others have been telling me to time and again. the picture is probably clearer from their side bah. i dunno. i know eunice's been telling me abt it time and again but i just cant get it in. den it suddenly struck me just now. mebbe its some hidden signal that god's trying to tell me bah. anw i think i will rather trust someone whom i knew for 7 yrs. and i believe seeing the same person everyday for 2 yrs will tell you his/her character. cant be wrong. guess im tired of the roller coaster ride already. it might be better if i try a new game.

no, you don't always reap what you sow.

2006-10-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

maf 2006.

the centrepiece: one of the most integral part of maf. a huge 3-d structure hanging above the central plaza, of which the lighting up is the climax of maf.

the fireball: a prelude to the lighting up of the centre piece. shows the theme for maf. this year's theme is yue4, which means music, or le4, which means joy.

the play: the reason behind why psi hit 150 at around 9pm ytd.

the reunion: maf is usually the day where many many batches of students come back to the familiar place they call hwachong to meet up with friends and tutors. here's 04s69.

the co gang: people whom you seldom meet up gets to meet up together during maf!

the dustbin: a good replacement when one of clique-mate cannot turn up for maf for a group photo. =P

the supper: casuarina curry's the place. =)

2006-10-08T13:04:00.000+08:00

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

2006-10-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

2 more days to maf!

haha waited for almost a yr for maf to come, but the excitement seemed to die down a little. cos someone's not going. sianx. +(

anw still cant decide if i should play bball or street before maf. haha. i guess i will just go sch and decide lar.

actually the official lunar august the fifteenth is tmr. and im on cos duty. how sad. but i already kept a mooncake in the company fridge. guess i shall eat alone tmr. sounds very very sad, but thats the truth. =P

2006-09-28T19:34:00.000+08:00

off on thursday.

this is probably one of the craziest thing i did for the yr. i took a day off from work just to go mambo night w pms. and i even had to give some reason in order to give my off approved. (hope no one sees this. there are sadistic pple in my company who stalk ppl's friendster and blogs.) so anw we met up at ps, took our time for some cartel half price cheese cake while waiting for the da xiao jie, and ended up seeing a massive, and i mean really massive queue outside zouk. saw diyang chian and lyanna there. so its like me korn lide yingyi chian and lyanna trying to squeeze thru the queue and diyang trying to help us cut queue. =P

albeit much difficulties, we managed to get our way through and boy, phuture is full house already when we got in. so had to go to the main arena, which i admit i dun really prefer. the music were not really my type, but its quite fun to see how the pple there dance with all the hand movement and stuff. the guys at the stage were pretty gay but they dance well. oh brenard jialing clara and one of their friends joined us as well after tt. it was pretty spacious initially. got some space to move about, but it eventually became squeezy. some indian guys came along and started pushing bernard. they got even higher when the dj started playing some indian track. haha.

got into phuture for a while. and i admit i still prefer r&b. haha. lide almost got into a fight with this guy. i really tot he should have flashed his police pass just to scare that person. anw other than that, all i rmb is phuture is super super squeezy. its hard to get in and even harder to get out.

we ended around 3 plus 4 and i realised i forgot to bring my keys. how smart. so i did another one of the craziest thing i did in the yr, which was to walk all the way from zouk back home. mind you that was at least 8km of walk i think. took around 1hr 20min. lucky my navex skills were quite up. heh.

talk of the day: a golfer had the correct stance and movement and managed to hit the ball consistently with the correct speed and technique, but the ball just would not fly far. the reason is simple. the ball is flying against the direction of the wind (think physics). sometimes we are unable to accomplish things not just because we are incapable, but that nature is often not on our side.

2006-09-24T11:33:00.000+08:00

seems like my blog has now become a weekly thing. every week i only managed to post one entry to sum up the week. actually i realised my camp do have a lab w internet access, budden i dun think i will go there frequently just to blog or wad. its too far away. haha.

anw this week marks the end of uip, which is definitely a good thing! haha no more standby, no more tekan, but still have a lot of saikang... haha. now at least i can get 2 nights off per week and can apply off or leave anytime. =D

had this midnight drinking session with lingandpms minus marc on friday. (i still kinda pity marc for being charged. this kinda thing can happen to anyone. but i guess its down to poor luck.) wanted to go timbre to chill, but we dilly dallied at ps while waiting for a certain someone, thus ended up facing a looong queue outside timbre. so we decided to head down to ling's place to drink by the pool. (its free anw. heh she sponsored the baileys.) first time i had bailey's, and it was really rich and creamy and smoothing alcohol man.. not forgetting sleep inducing. haha. so we talked abt many things, from disruption of ns to how your mums will wait for you in the living no matter what time you come home and stuff. guess as time passed, we all have grown up, as seen from wad we discussed. but we are still cheeky as always! (read: grandma's milk) its certainly good to just sit down once in a while, busk in the moonlight and just chilllll. heh.

2006-09-16T19:32:00.000+08:00

shall blog a quick one for the week before i head off for cos duty tmr. the last of the week!

anw this wk 3 of my men left, so its pretty sad for me. though we barely knew them for a month, they've been pretty nice (and they have pretty cars!), though they were qt slack at times. been talking to them alot throughout the week, which made me understand deeper about the army..

realised staff yong is actually a very nice guy. just that he had to act the bad guy initially when we just arrived at 3 sig. he actually initiated the revamp of the mess, taking money outta his own pocket to buy stuff like ps2, dvd players and stuff for our benefit. whats more impt is that from my men i heard abt his time where he was part of the un peacekeeping force fighting the guerillas in east timor. although his team were tasked to fight the guerillas, they did what they felt were right by helping fellow singaporeans there who were bullied by the locals. yet they were condemned by their superiors. this remind me of a saying. Stand up for what is right, even if you are the minority. honestly speaking i was quite touched by wad he did. (and i guess thats probably the reason why despite in the force for 15 yrs, he still hentak kaki at staff. haix)

hmmm oh den this week's been a great soccer week. played soccer for the first time in camp on wed.. i must say i've improved. heh played against a good team which was qt satisfying. den today played at amk also. quite shiok. must play more to improve my game. heh.

2006-09-10T18:05:00.000+08:00

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

there's this new hairdresser at rave who is kinda weird. she started talking to me as if i were her good friend, telling me stuff like how she dislike girls from single sex school and that they are very bitchy. she even started asking me if i've seen gays in army and that some guys turn gay during ns cos there are no girls around. and she started saying about how a muscular gay friend of hers actually have a soft spot and liked more muscular guys (thinks of tag). think i must been pretty unlucky these days to encounter weird people so often.

oh and did i mention i'm gonna have a new man under me who is excused firearms and have an intense passion for violence and gore? he loved saw and saw ii btw.

god bless me. =(

2006-09-07T15:58:00.000+08:00

okie. finally able to log in to blogger. the mess' coms seemed to have some common probs. anw im at rocky hill mess currently, home of the wospec. haha supposed to be the last day of attachment at tradoc today, budden after 2 days outfield, there's like basically nothing to do now, so can slack abit till night before gg back to 3sig. heh.
anw nothing much to update, except that i'll be burning and burning and burning my weekends, thanks to i also dunno who. supposed to have cos duty tmr, den there was this sudden confinement on saturday for some reason. and there will be a subsequent off in lieu of tuesday cos of that. and guess what, i've got another cos duty on tuesday. which pretty much sums up to all 4 of my duties this month are all burning away my free time.
how great.
=D

2006-08-31T16:47:00.000+08:00

thursday.

is supposed to be a happy day cos tmr's the weekend. budden my dearest ps is so nice to treat me to 1 X guard duty on saturday. come september i have 4 duties in total. grr. sorta spoilt my day.

anw today's the first day of attachment to atec and i realised how fortunate xuwei is! sometimes i think its really karma lar. do too much bad stuff so end up in f up units. tradoc's supposed to be 8-5, so since we are attached there, we shd be able to stay out during this period. but my dearest pc decides that since we are still undergoing uip we shd return to camp after 5. feel quite bad that the more senior 3sg have to stay in cos of us. but at least they have nights off today.

wads more, i just heard our uip will end on 22th sept. thats freaking 3 more bloody weeks! this probably means the bad things that i've done are not only countless, but the extent of evilness is insurmountable. =( normal uip is around 4 wks only. why is ours 5 1/2 wks long!!!

on a lighter note, managed to get 6 hrs of off today. which explains why i can relax and blog now. haha. and smart me decides to split my upcoming appointment which includes cleaning and tightening to 2 parts. hehex. met up w eunice for 57 mins (haha!) after dental. felt qt bad cos she wanna walk ard budden i wanna go home to sleep. haha. lazyy. sorry k! next time shd find me when i have a full day off or smth. haha.

oh den i saw lotsa familiar faces today! saw yangjie and nicky at plc today. of all places! the 2 plus me and xuwei make up a mini 1e gathering. haha. den saw gillian in town. haven seen her in ages. and to think she accidentally called me this morning. wad coincidence.

hope the remainder of the week goes well. however, i heard the radio playing daniel powter's bad day a while ago. past experience tells me something bad will happen if i hear the song... =S

2006-08-28T18:32:00.000+08:00

well, 3 days outside camp certainly passes much much faster than 3 days in camp i must say. did quite a bit of stuff, both good and bad.

friday night and subsequently sat morning was spent on jamming and band matters. its really a complicated thing. i had no idea of wadeva the outcome, but i just hope to jam more to improve. simple as that. did get to jam on sat morning, although i had to admit it was a bad one. gg to studio unprepared probably means a waste of time. somemore jamming with 3 zai pple adds to the pressure. i really wonder how they can prepare in such short time. anw i felt i was lagging behind. that feeling wasnt comforting. haix.

sat evening was spent w 69 cos renie's leaving. always good to be seeing the class n the turnout was pretty good as well. just a pity that the place wasnt really conducive for catching up. think i only end up tokin to the pple nearer to me. din really get to tok to pple like jonny or qianyi. oh managed to catch concave scream live. this local band's been ard the scene for abt 10 yrs i think, and they really wowed me as to the quality of local bands. so pls do support local band music! and im not referring to mi lu bing wadso ever. =p

sunday morning was the army marathon. had to wake up early in the morning. but thankfully it ended pretty early as well. saw qt a few old friends there.

today. went back to visit teachers at hc with marc. im always excited to be going back to hc i really dunno why. =p managed to chat with mrs lucy lee, mrs tham and mr ong. mrs lee is really a very nice teacher. now i regretted not listening more in her classes. its certainly more entertaining than the csm. mrs tham also gave me some food for thought as to taking which double degrees, so i guess i shall reconsider carefully. hmm. hwachong did change a lil. the classbenches in the inner plaza for eg, but the feeling is still there. =) cant wait for maf.

after that we rushed down to meet jialing for a tour at smu. i say we rush down cos marc woke up late and we reached hc at 1130 instead of the planned 10. =p tsktsk. anw so i looked every bit like a freshmen in college. haha according to those pple we met in smu, which i realised the various schools were wonderfully linked by an underground path. pretty cool. and there is this california fitness centre like gym where yu can see many "health-conscious" pple trying to shed off excess lipids. =p

all in all, we all agreed schooling is definitely a better way to serve the nation isnt it? haha.

2006-08-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

okie. this post is about how to determine if yu are undergoing a bad luck streak.

things to look out for:

1) when yu get posted to ya new unit as a 3rd sergeant, yu get punished for ridiculous things, by a 3rs sergeant.

2) ya new superiors decided to play a prank on yu. he turns yu out on the first day, made yu do stupid things like buddha claps and running around the parade sq, just becos yu have 3 pes c pple with yu who have problems changing into smart 4 and fall in in 7 mins.

3) yu get a surprise load of 'goodies' from ya previous batch (including old socks, slack, chilli sauce, daffle bag and even one big drum of d10 cables), yet yu din realise it cos its so well hidden, only to be revealed by your csm during stand by.

4) when yu are out having dinner with ya fwend, she can actually tick the wrong food on the menu and yu end up ordering some weird dish.

5) the nice waitress managed to help yu change ya food, only to be changed into another wrong dish that yu never heard or seen before.

well, if yu experienced any of the above, yu are probably in for a bad luck streak. anw i was pretty glad that my mortal readily agreed to have dinner with me today. so at least there is someone who can listen to my ranting, though i think i seldom does that. haha everytime i guess i'd just bottled my feelings up. so its not too bad to just rant at someone occasionally. =p thanx! i shall listen to ya advice and wait for my leaf to drop. hope everything goes well for her as well, i scared i would bring bad luck to her. haha.

guess i shall find time to catch up w my angel next.

2006-08-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

hmm finally i passed out from SI le.
abit happy and abit sad. cos thruout these 12 wks alot of things happened which changed my NS life. some more im gg to 3 sig which is the only active sig bn in saf. how lucky. budden heard its still not that bad there. so have to see how it goes tmr. and im still waiting for mdc to ask for me! haha.
anw so today had a half day off, which was qt well spent in my opinion. spent the afternoon rushing to town to watch click w eunice. it was a really really nice show, like wad lide said. think the plot was simple and the message behind reached the masses rather easily. a funny yet touching show. really made us reflect.
actually i wanna catch up w another fwend after tt, but thankfully that fwend wasnt free. cos i realised its actually pretty tiring already! haha. went for platoon dinner at marche suntec in the evening.. everyone turned up, which was quite impressive. [was half the class even there during the 69 bdae?] tot we would eat and tok kok there, but guessed we finished rather fast and the guys decided to play some lan at marina sq. but i ended early, cos i wanna come home to sleep. but now i am blogging. haha.
anw think should really get some sleep le. wish me luck at my new unit!

"will yu still love me in the morning?"
"forever and ever, babe."
-click

2006-08-13T00:51:00.000+08:00

went to watch fireworks with dex n yusin after dinner. today's supposed to be the last day of fireworks display so there are tons of ppl along both sides of the singapore river trying to catch a glimpse of the 13min long fireworks show.
true enough the 13 min was worth the time squeezing my trolley past cars and muddy patches to a more spacious spot where we can view the fireworks distinctly. its my first time watching it closeup (other than those smaller versions that i played w in msia), so the experience was exhilarating. watching fireworks really can brighten up a person and make them filled with happiness as they stared in awe at the sparkling fireworks that shimmered acrossed the sky like meteor rain (haha feels like im writing pri sch descriptive compo).
only sad thing is im watching w 2 guys. haha. dex was saying if only we had brought some female fwends along. how true. haha. to think i was telling khailin abt it in the evening.. guess its a different experience if one is viewing fireworks with pple of the opposite gender. =P heh. we joked abt how many guys at esplanade would kneel before their partners when the fireworks ends. haha. guess its not a bad idea to propose in front of the fireworks eh? haha.
well, after the last sparkle diminished into the dark sky, reality sinks in. and reality is that ive been posted to 3 sig bn at jurong camp. 3sig is supporting the 3rd div, and according to wad i heard, its supposed to be pretty slack. just that its a stay in vocation. shrugs. guess i'd have to make use of my time to do smth wisely. learning driving, read more books and learning a new language is wad i can think of now. shall work upon it. oh and hopefully mdc fulfill its promise of letting me perform in dec!

2006-08-09T21:12:00.000+08:00

till today, this week's been up and down. the down part is cos of some issue happening at work. really fcuked up and all. hope the next 2 days will be better. and i haven been getting enough sleep! thats really bad for someone like me who sleeps like a pig.
stayed over at zhan's w lide marc and ling ytd. thats the up part. ivan diyang diyan jianmin and clara were there but they eventually left. jianmin got safos sia. freaking zai. anw had a good talk ytd night, especially when everyone lying there, den cannot sleep, den just tok crap. guess its good to catch up once in a while. esp when marc and zhan's flying off soon.
anw changed my blogskin, cos of pple who complain its v boring. hah.
oh anw check out marc's new blog@flambouyancyatitsbest.blogspot.com!

2006-07-30T02:09:00.000+08:00

emo day today..

well, one of my bro embarked on his 41 day sailing journey today, so the other 3 of us went to send him off. jialing was supposed to come but she pangseh for the sake of giving tuition! anw the sending off was rather simple, no ceremony no nothing, just a waving goodbye ceremony if yu call it. was a rather majestic creature in my opinion, the rss persistence. think they will have a memorable time on it. tho not sure memorable is a positive or negative connotation. oh did i mention i met a primary sch fwend there. and he rmbed me! haha. the feeling is good to know that yu left an impression on others and they still rmbs yu.

anw after sending korn, the remaining 3 of us had lunch at 4pm at expo bk. quiet place it was, the expo. so we had qt a good talk. realised we haven had a real good talk for very long! last time we talk when we were supposed to revise. class bench, the tables at reading room, even at coffee bean. after the As, everyone were so busy we hardly sat down to have a good chat. hmmm tok abt many things, espeically those close to the heart. sometimes its really good to have bros whom yu can share ya feelings with, though not everything, but most of the things. =]

20 yrs down the road, i really hope we can come tgt and recount what we did today.

[oh and thanx weiwei and eunice for helping me w the integration qn, if not i cant sleep tonight alr. haha =D]

2006-07-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

had our 16km route march at east coast park ytd.

kinda weird to have a route march at ecp i must say, however its really fun to march at ecp. think anyone would have taken another look at a group of soldiers walking in a place where pple are supposed to chill out. obviously we din miz well enough into the surroundings. haha. we walked all the way from sector G where the radio controlled car club was situated, all the way past the seafood place, via marine cove till this restaurant called bistro turqoise and back. not a long journey though, but there sure were lotsa eye-catching moments which kept us entertained thru the journey.

haha now i think girls who know how to roller blade are pretty cool. and its a pretty sight esp when they blade past yu. we caught qt some hot chicks blading there (oops!), either in groups or in pairs. den there were also those couples hiding under the dark spots beneath the trees and stuff. haha it was sure funny as we tried to 'contact' them. also not forgetting pple who teased us. esp this group of bikers who rode past us, den one of them shouted 'ai zai', den dunno why they end up crashing into one another. haha serves yu right!

hmm alot of pple also took photos of us. never seen before soldiers marching issit. lolx. espeicially those caucasian tourists. think we are some walking exhibitions or smth. the cameras keep flashing. next time saf should org more marches at tourist attractions and den charge pple for taking photos of us.. haha den can earn more money.. can indent more quality food. haha.

alrights time to go back camp le. cant wait for weekend. haha.

2006-07-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

had class outing at sentosa today. as predicted, the turnout wasnt that good. a few promised to come and last min backed off due to some reasons. and that was not helped by the fact that it was pouring at sentosa while we were getting there.

thankfully when we reached it stopped. played a lil beach soccer which most of the time we were laughing. haha. den wanted to paly captains ball before we had to return the ball to its owner. so we went kayaking.. haha din really liked the experience. cos like just paddling to the far end and back was rather sian.

had dinner at the newly reopened tiong bahru food centre. think hawkerfare was rather good cos of the family-ness feeling. haha. the idea of everyone buying diff food den we all share the food together is really great. got the sort of bonding effect in my opinion. reminded me of my sispec mates and our food escapade at adams road not long ago. haha kinda liked today's dinner. haha.

actually din really tot much of today's outing till qianyi told me she had fun. that it was quite nice to do smth tog, since our class outing these days mostly are dinners which were very sian. hmmm well, was rather happy to hear it as i org the trip, so tho the turnout wasnt good, at least there are pple who appreciated the effort! haha. to me, i think the company is the most impt lar. was qt glad to see zhanwei too. who just landed this morning and spontaneously came to join us. haha.

ooh not forgetting the guys bball match at nie in the nite. GG. heh.

2006-07-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

its the weekend again!

haha i simply love friday nights.. heh. just came back from watching pirates w handsome and yawen. qt a lame show tho, would be more fun if nick n wendy were ard, but nonetheless its good to see my old fwends.

been feeling happy for the past 2 days. and i dunno why. haha.

2006-07-15T23:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm, tmr got duty. on a sunday. again. very sian. the adminstration is seriously f up man. there are pple who are doing 2 sundays while others dun even need to do any weekend on at all. and tmr's duty also last min den inform us one. darn. wad to do. suck thumb lor.

anw this wkend, which was basically today, also din do much. jammed in the morning, den played for this amateur league team in the afternn. was supposed to catch pirates at night, but no tix liao. too tired also. zzz.

next week pls come fast.

2006-07-05T20:51:00.000+08:00

pissed off day in camp today.

started off w injuring my toe while playing soccer in the store ytd night. was qt fun tho. 2v2. just that its abit cramp. yunsheng is a gd dribbler and pairing w him really made things easier. but anw siong kiat zam my toe, so it ended up bruised. i mean, hitting into him is practically like hitting ya foot into the wall.

so the toe become swollen and bruised and it din get better this morning. so i decided to see mo lor. since free checkup, why not rite. cos i also scared fracture or smth. esp when my right leg like v delicate kind, can break for no reason. so went to report sick.

den upon coming back from mo, this guy cheekily asked me if i got attn a for chao keng-ing. which is qt f-ed up since i was like limping last night lar. was really qt fed up alr since he's been getting on my nerves for qt a while. i can forgive him for teasing my name (since i'ved lived w it for ages), but looking down on me is wad i cannot stand. like ytd he commented that i cant play soccer, and when i proved him wrong, he continued to say i can only play well in a small confined space like the store. f*** you understand. come show me yu are better, if not just watch and shut the f*** up.

anw more pple started joining him and said comments like 'mai ge siao', 'wayang' and all those f***sh*t. but i ren. and ren is wad i did throughout the day, esp when gg to meals, cos while others march there, i can walk there. so the anger practically build up as the day goes. and wad makes me disappointed is that siongkiat is egging them on. when he himself is the one who zam me, and he still have the cheek to say i 'chao keng'. though we everyday bicker in camp, today i really cannot take it liao. its just too much. just that i cant whack him cos he's simply too big.

only can say that today is really f***-ed up. mebbe i do have the 'qiam pa' face which just makes me detest me. f*** it.

2006-07-02T00:57:00.000+08:00

damn. england lost to portugal on penalties again. i was hoping for a draw before england seals it in penalties. wtf. england really needs to work on its penalties sia. everytime stop at quarterfinals. bet many must be heartbroken. like my sis. sigh. penalties are cruel.

anw, on a lighter note, guess i shall blog abt today's outing w eunice. was kinda looking forward towards it cos its been some time since we've met. hanging out w my bestie is always nice cos there are alot to talk abt. actually most of the time is she talk den i listen lar. but just feels comfortable talking to et. think she knows all my secrets. haha. anw we went to big O for lunch and i really ate too much till i was really uncomfortable. the sandwich was filling, and i stupidly ordered another mudpie thinkin i could gobbled them up. tho i really did, but it wasnt a nice eating experience lar i must say. too bu zi liang li alr. haha.
caught scary movie later, was supposed to catch cars budden no more shows le. =(( guess shall wait for the dvd or smth. missed qt alot of nice movies this yr! cos like cant find anyone to watch w me. sad case. anw scary movie was rather funny, tho we both agreed that 3 is better. but its for the entertainment bah.
after tt we basically bumped ard orchard, from lido to hmv den back to lido area again. think covered most parts of town alr. budden din find anything nice to buy lar. either too ex or not nice. haha. but it was not bad to have a 'consultant' beside me advising me on wad is nice and wads not. =P tho i must admit i dun think im cut out for shopping. but the company was great lar. =] guess we really talked abt alot of stuff that have happened recently and also stuff that've been ard for some times. so its really a great feeling i must say. and yes eunice, the cryptic thing is wad i told yu abt just now. haha.

i love my bestie! =D

2006-06-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

its amazing how pple can change in 2 yrs.
made a mistake abt 2 yrs ago.
hope i dun make the same mistake again.
will i?

2006-06-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

saturday is not a gd day if yu spend the whole day at home. which basically means i wasted one precious day off. =(( thanx to the stomach flu that i had in the afternn. wonder wad went wrong also. if i rmb correctly the other time i had stomach flu was the start of the yr and the previous previous time would be during mid last yr. =X if trends were to be true, i would be expecting another one come end of the day. haha. thankfully this time round i went to the docs pretty early, else i would have suffered another terrible afternn trying to wait for the pain to ease off.

bad thing is, i din get to go and make my new specs today. guess i'll have to stick w the toot black one for the time-being, or just simply dun wear specs. have to wait another week i guess, since tmr, or rather this afternn i wont be free. haix.

next wkend shd be more fulfilling i guess. gonna meet eunice on sat. haha she claims i ps her for a number of times and din chat w her online for weeks. sorry lar. its the world cup season man. hmm hopefully next wk i can meet j too. but chances are slim. gotta try and see if could contact her first. it's been a good 2 yrs man. i've decided to at least try to kp in contact w her. =]

anw speaking of world cup, germany just beat ecuador. a fwend's nick wrote brazil will pawn germany's @ss. think argentina will more likely have the chance man. haha. anw i've been qt lucky to win 5 games straight this wk. but too bad i bet small small only. and its just barely enuff to cover my consultation fees this afternn. =X

but thats life for you.

2006-06-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

phew. two weeks of parade finally ended. its a tiring process man. preparing almost everyday for 2 major parades for the signals formation. worse still, the 2 parades basically involves the same drills. can yu imagine how bored it is not. grrr. and the stupid thing is, the first parade involves the commander of SI stepping down, and the second parade is the same guy taking up the chief signal officer post. mebbe it would be wiser to combine 2 parades into 1 and make it a super grand one? [note: i used super cos the parade was already very grand despite the fact that its just a simple one. they even brought in a mammoth tanker and other big vehicles into the parade sq just for show.]

thankfully the rehearsals paid off and OC was very satisfied w our performance. the current and ex chief signal officers both seemed to be nice pple from the way the 2 of em interacted w us. so hopefully my stay as a signaller would be better cos of them.

the OCTs would be coming in next wk i heard. those who were deemed the cream of the crop. haha. but looking at the way the latest commissioned officers performed during the parade rehearsals.. hmmm. anw hope to see some familiar faces. till now i know only matt is coming. hah.

2006-06-17T02:00:00.000+08:00

went timbre today to celeb lide's bday. actually not really a celebration. just a meeting of some sort. timbre was the place we wanna go last wk but din due to some wedding gg on there. so its kinda unexpected that ling brought us to the same place again. haha. timbre is a nice pub, save for the smokes by the cigarettes. watched argentina-s&m match there. argentina really proved to be serious title contenders i must say. was a joy watching them play. :]

and surprisingly we saw many hwachong teachers there. i wonder why. 5 of them in fact. june tan came first w her fwends, den remedios came, followed by june tay, alex tan and another teacher who came together. the last teacher was some physics s tchr whom seemed rather conservative in sch, but she appeared in this black halter and mini skirt and a bowl hairdo [or wadeva yu call that], so it was quite shocking. and some more remedios smokes. i hate smokers. and to think he was one of those teachers whom i respected.

finally, this band called timmy performed after the match. lk n sh mentioned abt them b4, and they were indeed very gd. the vocal had a gd voice and the coordination was wonderful. they played some really cool and nice songs. one of it was called radio killed the radio child or smth. entertaining.

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I..
Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

2006-06-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

before i touch on wad i wanna say, i just wanna say that singapore idol is really v fake. such a commercialised show which makes the contestants look as though they were acting, not singing. this hc girl was on the show just now, and her behavior is really weird. dun think she is such a person from wad i see in sch sia. trying to act naughty and slutty and stuff. totally puts me off. pardon me for saying that naifen. but she does have a powerful voice which she shd use to her advantage. hmm.

anw decided to heed eunice's advice and not be so emo in today's post. afterall im on nights out and its midweek alr! meaning 2 more days to weekend! TGIF! haha this weekend is worth looking forward to i supposed. meeting shiping n marc for dinner on fri and class outing on sat. and world cup's starting! can watch a couple matches at least. just too bad that i've gotta book in on early sunday morning for guard duty. and my parents are gg msia for some wedding dinner, so i guess i've gotta take cab there or smth le. =

payday on saturday!

2006-06-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

after a really bad day ytd, im glad today was at least better.
well din do much today except for gg breakfast w al and sending celine off. wasnt really close to celine but since we were asked le, so i tot i'd just go lor. afterall she seems a nice person. haha. the last time i went to the airport was to send my cousin off last yr this period. was really sad den, w all the tears and all, though not my tears. anw today's sending off wasnt that bad. was qt amazed that alot of pple came to send her off. when i said alot i mean like more than pple. shows that she is a very sociable person. =] hope she will do well in oz. anw bro, if yu are reading this, take care too. separation may be temporary, but the friendship is forever. =D

hmm korn and i were thinking, if next time round we were the ones gg overseas to study, how many pple would come to see us off. 10? 20?

2006-05-31T22:47:00.000+08:00

well i guess im been repeating this for a long time, over and over again. but i still wanna say: i miss school. or more specifically hwachong. sigh.

went back to get my cert today, den pop down for the co practice in the afternn. the jrs din practice much, basically slacked thruout the afternn. pretty much like wad we did last yr, so the feeling was qt gd. somemore today only the j2s and 1 j1 turn up, so it really felt like last yr. =] miss performing w the guys sia. speaking of which, mdc just called me up this yr. hopefully they can get me over for the dec concert.
den spent qt some time at the staff room, just hanging around. sk was showing me the big milk bottle card his class made for his ct, den i suddenly rmb we did smth for tham too, so went to look for it. den end up sitting at tham's desk and looking at the calendar huishan did. ms wong said tham liked it alot. im glad she did. actually i liked it as well. think it's a wonderful gift. really brought back alot alot of memories. sigh.
went classs bench slacked for a while and den played a lil bball. all this lil things that made up my jc life.

i miss the class bench. i miss the bball sessions. i miss dazu. i miss the monday ke ai ji recess breaks. i miss the street court. i miss sitting in the audi tryin to copy other pple's math notes. i miss mugging at the reading room. i miss the chicken rice w stewed egg. i miss catching a glimpse of yu every other day. i miss the pe lessons. i miss the various festivals. i miss performing in front of the school. i miss seeing chong's face whenever she getd fed up of the class. (okie thats evil. hah.) and i miss alot more im sure.

sometimes i wished i never had grown up.

2006-05-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

The Ghost Of You

I never said I'd lie and wait forever
If I died, we'd be together
I can't always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever...
Ever...

Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall
If I fall (down)

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna...

2006-05-28T12:48:00.000+08:00

i decided i shall talk abt army in this entry. smth i did not mention much before. cos i dun really like to think abt work once im outta camp. however, the last week in sispec was really smth worth mentioning abt. smth that i can look back and reminiscence the times i had with my platoon. or ex platoon.

hmm start w monday. company steamboat dinner. was just a simple dinner i guess. but to be eating together w the section was qt nice i guess. too bad sgt neo have guard duty tt day. if not shd have more fun tokin kok. anw the fun part is the drinkin. everyone entitled to 3 cans duty-free tiger, so most of us drank lar. i din like tiger that much, so only drank one can plus. kai lun got drunk after 3 cans or so. haha. den he started sprouting rubbish, tokin abt dirrty stuff, say which website got free porn d/l for ipod and stuff. never seen someone drunk b4, but seeing him make me feel that one shd understand his limits lar. it seems rather scary to be drunk, den yu kena manipulated by others and wake up not knowing wad happened.

tuesday. 16km route march. was qt fun to be singing w the platoon, though the thought of walking so long sounds qt sian. luckily there was dinner break at the 8k mark, so it seemed more like 2 8km marches.

wed. slack. basically this whole wk was qt slack save for the last day. most of the time spent on stupid things like area cleaning and talkin crap in the bunk. but wed we've got icct. learnt locks which i felt was useful. heh next time not happy can lock pple den make them suffer. also, there's our last nights off in golf. went out to eat at crystal jade w my section. actually every nights off is eating eating and eating lar, which is no wonder i got pretty fat now. shucks. guess i will miss jurong point too in some way, since i shall being have nights off at lot 1 soon. heh. oh the aslc batch pass out today. i shall wait for the day where i get my 3 stripes too. think it would be a proud moment!

thurs. cant rmb much. wanted to blanket party this guy in the platoon, whom kinda incurred the wrath of the platoon or smth. budden it din ended up well. shant elaborate much. just a sense of unjust for mongseng who was kena spat at by that guy. i still think he was right to throw that punch.

friday. preps for graduation parade and march! it was super tiring i swear. the rehearsal in the morning alr took 3 plus hr. den had course debrief, after which we were supposed to rest in bunk to prepare for the 28km march. surprisingly i couldnt slp, considering i slept during nearly every break we have. prob qt excited over pop bah. anws so slack until like 7 plus den went for briefing before kicking off the march in style. got kitaro's matsuri as backgrd music and flames all ard chevron sq. like really off to some war liddat. the march was shiong. all the way round the camp and out to the whole of ntu and beyond. managed to catch a glimpse of my future sch tho. the last 8km was a killer. cos its like 2,3am in the morning and morale was super low. din know how i managed to do it, but im certainly proud we finished it as a platoon.

sat. after the march i slept for like 45mins den have to prepare for parade le. was a stupid parade but it was great to have ya rank put on by the pc. anw the day was filled w speculations abt our posting. it felt like results day where we were all hyped up and stuff. well when the final moment come, i was qt happy to be posted to signals! haha. one of the better choices of others like armour, arti, aslc, combat medic and even guards n sniper. gonna be a slack 10 wks ahead. but that means i've gotta train on my own so my physical fitness wont drop and hope to shed some fat too. haha.

well that pretty much sums up my 10th wk in sispec. im sure i will miss the pple in golf.

2006-05-21T18:15:00.000+08:00

first eunice got herself an audi a4. den my cousin got a honda integra. and another had this black mazda 6. its really tempting sia. i wanna own a car too! used to love honda integra alot. and now it cost ard 70 k only! but think my dad will start telling me about how wasteful it is to own a car in singapore and stuff. =(( all the instalments, road taxes, petrol, blah blah blah. sigh. to think i wanna own a black bmw by 30. yao jia you loh.

anw this wk has been very hwachong. in the sense that i spent most of my wkend doing hwachong related stuff. watching bball finals was one, and dance nite was another. the former was really exciting, i felt really lucky to be able to come out and watch the game lor. and hc boys winning the title after 3 yrs simply made it sweeter man. as for the latter, i guess it was equally impressive bah. the break dances and stuff. really wow-ed me the way the current j1 batch rocked the audi. to think i tot the j1s were a bunch of nerds. mebbe its just my grandjrs. haha.

visited my co juniors as well on friday. too bad jona wasnt around and yingz just made a brief appearance. they were my 2 fav juniors sia. haa. anw felt kinda left out there, so i left rather quickly. naifen came later, so din get to see him. sorry lah! after nearly a yr of not touching percussion i think i really lost touch liao. cant even teach the jrs. it was freak embarassing lor. shant elaborate alr. hopefully i can be there for the concert. heh.

ah. watched da vinci w dex n wendy. some graphics were nice, especially how they depicted the past. but they cut alot and even distorted some facts in the book. din really liked it. and the scences dun really fit since they cut here and there. so i guess it would be hard to interpret if one hadnt read the book. hope xmen will be better. hah.

oh and im gonna be corporal in 6 days time. corporal nelly. =P

2006-05-14T12:10:00.000+08:00

sunday morning. or rather afternoon alr since its passed 12. haha. think gonna laze ard at home today. save some cash. haha. this month's pay is meagre man. cant wait for promotion in 2 wks time. den mebbe more money to spend. haha. lotsa things i wanna get lor. even dreamt of buying new shoes ytd. haha.

anw its been qt unlucky during the weekdays this wkend. esp during nutcracker. rain like mad for the first night. and we were stuck in stinky wet muddy no. 4 for 3 days. and i was accessed. and i was screwed by pc. and i even lost my sgt's gloves. but all's over alr. so i guess next week will be kinda more smooth sailing for me. hopefully can be enemy during grand slam! haha den very slack le. oh i went for some nus study awards interview. think i screwed it up too. the firefly one went better but din got thru, so this one shd b sama sama lar. haha.

eh this weekend was rather sian. but at least not so rush lar. din go out w too many pple. hang out qt a bit with my family n cousins, which was smth i was qt happy abt. gg in makes yu treasure ya cousins more sia. now at least we plan more stuff n go out more often. den went for dinner w pms n ling minus marc. haha. poor marc have to spend his bday in taiwan chionging sua. had hawkerfare at newton food centre. food not bad but freakin ex for hawkerfare. haha spend like 20 odd bucks. eat here eat there. outside food is really delicacy sia. even jialing was appalled by the way we eat. heh. den went to 3 monkeys at orchard towers for soccer. now i got to know a lil more abt alcohol. hmm.

been blog-surfing this morning too. like everyone's life very sian. other than jialings of cos. she went hk lar. so shuang. the others were mainly the same. the guys tok abt ns. the girls tok abt work. but the girls one abit more interesting lar. at least they are in the outside world. haha. guess school life more duo zi duo cai. which reminds me. im gg for bball finals next fri! haha. shiok eh. can feel the hwachong-ness all over again. haha.

actually im qt lookin forward to next sat. another long weekend and some more got nice shows coming up. haha da vinci n over the hedge. but haven jio pple to watch yet. nvm. shall do it over the weekend. haha.

time for lunch.

2006-05-06T12:03:00.000+08:00

sians.
i've got 2 tough weeks ahead.
and of all pple
i've got guard duty on thurs night.
oh great.

2006-05-01T19:51:00.000+08:00

monday blues.

woke up feeling kinda sad, even tho i know i'll be meeting khai n lide in the afternoon. 2 reasons. spent helluva lot during the last 2 days. abt 200 bucks i supposed. hope mum doesnt see this of im screwed. another sad thing would be bookin in tonight. or rather in 2 more hrs.

guess this is the first time spending like so much money at a go. 200 bucks would be equivalent to 10 odd days slogging outfield, smelling the mud and feeding the mosquito. and poof, all's gone in 2 days. however most of it were spent on other pple. cos nearly half the amt was on presents for numerous pple. all the april n may babies! haha. but it kinda feels good to buy pple presents knowing that yu will make them happy. hopefully. anw feel kinda bad that i din get anything for lk. my mugger lover! haha. apparently the girls bot her some stuff n left the guys out! how smart. hmm hopefully pms wud get her a belated present soon. cos i felt much indebted to her. haha. tan lay khim yu better be touched if yu read this. =p

anw sat was a pretty enjoyable day. met up w eunice in the afternoon. haha haven seen her in a while, so its good to see my bestie again! haha n not forgetting all the help n advice she gave me while shopping the whole afternn. afterall she's queen of shopping. heh. thanx bud! den caught up w some of the pple in 69 in the evening. the feeling is very comfortable, tho we always seemed to do the same stuff during class outing --> eat. haha every class outing end up as class dinner. not many turn up tho, but its gd to see pple whom i haven seen in a while, like lk, bum n g5. haha next time we shall not talk abt ns during class outings. i think its unhealthy. =P oh n chelsea won the league on sat. damn. oh and not forgetting i sneezed the whole day, which sorta dampened the whole day a lil. argh.

sunday. din intend to go out cos of flu. just wanna go out n pass some stuff den go home rest. end up i went to meet 4 diff groups of pple throughout the day. god knows how shag i am when i returned at around 1 ytd nite. was like a marathon lar. spending like 3 hrs w each group, running around town n the suburbs. nonetheless, it was quite a happy day. just tired.

today. well just came back from movie w khai n lide. watched the wild. wanna watch daisy but no nice time slots. haha. just my luck i guess. these few days really unlucky. sat went ard whole of town lookin for this magnet den end up cannot find. sheesh. anw was nice catchin up w my mortal. hope to see the rest of my juniors soon.

happy times really past with a snap of the finger. guess i shall go back to the where i belong le. hah like the lion in the movie, who should belong to the wild but stuck inside a zoo.

why do i seemed to get this distant feeling from you?
or is it just me?

2006-04-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

hmm only have abt 5 mins to blog so have to make this quick.
well today is friday and i got nights off! heh kinda weird to have nights off on friday but its better than nothing. haha. gotta go back soon and tmr come out again. but this week is freaking shag! so i think we deserved this nights off lor.

haha ytd went to mandai for gypsy. quite an experience! not a totally good one, but nonetheless unforgettable. hah. shall blog abt it tmr.

and i just got accepted into ntu business. suppposed to be good news i guess but after hearing wad my bunkmates say, im kinda fickle again. smu seems to be quite attractive now, and i realised i should have opted for double degree instead. and somehow economics seems to appeal to me as well! =S guess its too late to change or wadsoeva now. mebbe next yr try to apply if i decided to change my mind. but then again, next yr have to compete with thousands of dragon babies. yucks.

2006-04-16T19:01:00.000+08:00

gd friday. long weekend. =)
but all good things have to come to an end.
when reality falls, its time to go again. =S
but thankfully, this 'disillusion' was not a bad one.
at least its occupied.
marc said, 'look forward to next fortnight,
look forward always, dun dread it.
how true.
after 14 days, another long weekend.
start planning!
make every minute of it meaningful.

heh. i think im blabbering nonsense.

2006-04-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

sometimes a smile is all it takes to make everything worthwhile. so smile! =)

2006-04-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting

2006-04-01T15:45:00.000+08:00

On the 1st week of BMT my OC gave to me,
a chao ah gua as my buddy.

On the 2nd week of BMT my OC gave to me,
2 gortex boots
and a chao ah gua as my buddy.

On the 3rd week of BMT my OC gave to me,
3 tent pins
2 gortex boots
and a chao ah gua as my buddy.

On the 4th week of BMT my OC gave to me,
4 camo cream
3 tent pins
2 gortex boots
and a chao ah gua as my buddy.

On the 5th week of BMT my OC gave to me,
5 ~ number ~ 4s
4 camo cream
3 tent pins
2 gortex boots
and a chao ah gua as my buddy.

On the 6th week of BMT my OC gave to me,
6 cubicles
5 ~ number ~ 4s
4 camo cream
3 tent pins
2 gortex boots
and a chao ah gua as my buddy.

On the 7th week of BMT my OC gave to me,
7 urinals
6 cubicles
5 ~ number ~ 4s
4 camo cream
3 tent pins
2 gortex boots
and a chao ah gua as my buddy.

On the 8th week of BMT my OC gave to me,
8 shower heads
7 urinals
6 cubicles
5 ~ number ~ 4s
4 camo cream
3 tent pins
2 gortex boots
and a chao ah gua as my buddy.

On the 9th week of BMT my OC gave to me,
P ~ O ~ P !!!
8 shower heads
7 urinals
6 cubicles
5 ~ number ~ 4s
4 camo cream
3 tent pins
2 gortex boots
and a chao ah gua as my buddy.

[haha the result of getting too bored while waiting for TH test this morning. dedicated to recruits to be and based on true account. have fun in tekong!]

2006-03-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

hmm was feeling kinda down ytd nite. suddenly got this tot that my life now have no purpose or any meaning lar. cos everyday i wake up looking forward to the end of the day, and everyday i look forward to the end of the week. this cycle has been carrying on for qt some time, and its really sad. pathetic. in jc at least i had some sort of goal, say syf gwh, or doing well for bowling and eventually a levels. theres an aim in life. now, theres nothing. its like a mere countdown and praying that the remaining 500++++ days end soon. =X luckily this morning i watched densha and at least got some inspiration and a lil more positive outlook. [=

next, al called me this afternoon ard lunch. din expect to talk to her so much but just ended up talking alot anw. haha was telling her some of my problems and she gave this interesting analogy. A is rock climbing and faced problems reaching the peak while B is at the top of the mountain. A wants to reach the peak where B is, but the path ahead difficult. But B did not reach out a helping hand to try to pull A up. to make matters worse, A have no one to belay him at the bottom. if A continue climbing, he may eventually reach where B is, or he may slip on his way and fall heavily. if A decides to stop climbing, he may feel sad not to be able to reach the peak, but at least he know he wont injure himself. so should A strive on and continue climbing or should he stop and just come down?

if anyone read this, pls tag and tell me ya view. hah. =p anw thanx al for the chat =] made me think alot in the afternn lor. heh.

2006-03-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

back to camp tmr le.
new camp. new beginning.
positive thinking!

budden there is this sad feeling inside.
boo.

2006-03-19T11:10:00.000+08:00

abt posting.
sighs. was shopping halfway den heard that im gg to sispec. first thing was disappointment lor. was hoping to get to like medic or signals which are more relaxed and stuff, but well things sometimes dun go according to what yu want lor. and the funny thing is wadeva i dreamt always never come true. that day i dreamt i got posted to some slack vocation which is 8-5, den end up gg to sispec, which is supposed to be qt xiong. well, just take things as it comes bah. afterall its just the mentality. =]
anw i made 3 wishes at the start of the yr. the one on results din come true, neither does the one on posting. so demoralising. wonder when will the 3rd ever come true. if it ever comes true that is. =X

abt kl trip.
haha shiok. guess et was right man. retail therapy really helps to brighten the mood. hehx. bot qt some stuff, mainly for myself. hehx. but still cant be compared to darian lar. that guy shops like a woman! =p anw most satisfying was buying shoes i must say. its smth that really makes me happy lor. i think shoes really reflect on the person. thus buying nice shoes makes me happy. haha. oh and did i mention darian bot 3 pairs at a go? haha insane man. but one day i shall try. think it will be a freaking gd feeling to buy 3 nice pairs of shoes at a go, especialy when yu are stuck b/w a few types den just buy all. shiok sia. haha.
oh n the hotel we stayed was fabulous. its a swiss deluxe room at the heart of kl. den its freaking spacious i think can fit 10 person easily. 2 rooms 1 living n a kitchen. haha really comfy lor. heard it cost rm2000 a day normally, budden we paid like 340sgd for it. so shd be considered qt zhuan dao? haha dunno lar. tho i think its qt steep but it is sure worth the money lor. the view especially is astonishing. can see both towers of kl distinctly and also whole of kl. staying at 32nd level def helps also. haha. on the whole, the trip was qt refreshing. and now its time to shou1 shi2 xin1 qing2 and go back to army. boooo.

2006-03-15T20:45:00.000+08:00

tired.
frustrated.
irritated.
bah.

2006-03-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

picture this.

yu are running a 42.195km marathon for the first time in ya life.
to yu, completing the marathon was smth very meaningful.
yu've seen many of ya fwends whom have done it before.
some even more than once.
yu wanted to emulate that feat.
to finish the race and feel the satisfaction at the finishing line.

yu are merely a few km away.
yu are beat.
tired. sweating like hell. legs numbed. vision blurred.
but yu tell yourself.
yu can do it. yu've come this far.
there's is only this little more to go. push on.

so yu continue.
running and running.
until yu vaguely saw the white tape ahead of yu.
as yu finally crossed the line, yu tot to yaself.
is this worth it?
your time, your effort, your energy.

maybe completing 42.195km isnt a big deal afterall.

2006-03-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

POP loh!!!

photos to be uploaded once i collected them from the rest of the platoon =D

bronco coy, bronco coy...
bronco coy bronco coy bronco coy
we are the best
we are the champions
we will always be the one
Bronco!

2006-03-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

think each n everyone of us have different expectations of our results today. to many, 3a1b maybe qt a good result alr. but im still kinda disappointed in myself lar. seriously also dunno wad went wrong with chem, someone just tell me why man. seems like everyone in the class got A for chem den i got B, when im quite sure chem, phy n math shd get A. freak.

tham was like saying "nelson, yu did very well, but why your chem got B?" i was super shocked den. if it was econs which got B den at least i more prepared abit. but why chem? i feel like i really dui bu qi tham sia. especially after her numerous remedial lessons after prelims in a bid to improve our results. its like both her efforts n mine went down the drain. really dunno what to say lar. think no one can really understand how it feels lor.

on a lighter note, i guess the class dvd was pretty well done n i really appreciated the effortds made by the organising committee. thankx! it was pretty nice to read the testimonials n reflect about the past 2 yrs.

04s69!

2006-02-26T13:01:00.000+08:00

What if everything you always took for granted, was gone?
And everything you ever thought was right, was wrong?
And what if everyone you ever loved was torn, from the pages of your life?
Would you reach out for tomorrow, or try to turn back time?

These open arms will wait for you
These open arms can pull us through
Between what's left and left to do
These open arms
These open arms
These open arms will wait for you

Did you really love the ones you said you loved, thats right?
And did you make a damn of difference in somebody elses life?
Tell me, is there someone you can count on when you need a friend?
Can you see I need a friend?

These open arms will wait for you
These open arms can pull us through
Between whats left and left to do
These open arms
These open arms
These open arms will wait for you

Can you live in your skin, walk in your own shoes?
You can't win, if you don't know how to lose
Crawl, fall, Jonny gotta learn to fly

These open arms will wait for you
These open arms can pull us through
Between what's left and left to do
These open arms
These open arms
These open arms
These open arms
These open arms will wait for you

2006-02-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

2006-01-31T18:37:00.000+08:00

hmm 1 more hour b4 bookin in. feeling damn sian. next wk is field camp, so cant come back in during the next weekend. =(
but cny was still alright though. managed to catch up with 69, which was quite gd. =)
happy new yr to all, n hope i will be home soon!

+dunwasteyourtimeonme,youralreadyavoiceinsidemyhead+

2006-01-01T22:56:00.000+08:00

happie new yr!

this new yr is kinda unlucky for me. =( just like during the trip. ytd went qianyi's house for countdown gathering.. not many ppl went though. plus those who left, abt 10 pple attended i guess.. had a steamboat dinner den watched hollow man and play mahjong. just a lil get-together, but its kinda nice to hear from jonny n jz, who bookout from tekong. soon i'll be part of them. haha. anw dunno wad happened but i felt pain in my stomach at ard 3am. tot just hungry so din really give a hoot abt it. end up today like pain the whole day lar. at one time it was so serious i tot i would faint. ugh. lucky went back silver cross for a jab den now at least the condition is stabilised.

hmm my cousins came to see me just now! pleasant surprise i must say. was supposed to go grandma house for new yr gathering one.. got some potluck or smth. den end up cannot go cos of the pain. den they suddenly pop up at my doorstep just now to pay me a visit. haha really gan dong. thats wad brothers n sisters are for man. =)

2005-12-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

merry 'belated' xmas!

thanx to all that send me cards, qianyi, yawen, sotong, handsome, renie, kan2! n thanx al for ya pressie! hopefully everyone whom i sent the cards to received them, cos very lil pple told me they do. probably cos i din switched on my hp for the past 5 days, den ytd when i switched on after i return i only received msgs from the day before. how sad. anw hope everyone had a great holiday!

the penang trip was still alright i guess, the most unforgettable part was probably getting food poisoning from all the seafood there, sadly. =X

anw schs reopening soon, doesnt really affects me, but can crash orientation! too bad cant go for campfire, cos gonna go in soon liao.

10 days. =(

2005-12-20T13:53:00.000+08:00

cause I am hanging on every word you say and

even if you don't wanna speak tonight

that's alright, alright with me

cause I want nothing more than

to sit outside Heaven's door

and listen to your breathing

is where I wanna be yeah

2005-12-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

well, being 18 can be one of the more impt phases in one's life, and i believe i had a surprise more than wad i had expected today.

it started w a few calls looking for mrs lim.. den its like v weird cos they din say the full name, den the voice sounded familiar. since my mum was not around i ask who they were from so that i can get her to return the call or smth. den they claimed to be from the insurance. ah! dunno why i din sense anything amiss or wadsoever. den korn was telling me that tonight got class game, so i said okie lor. at 12 sharp, pms came upon my doorstep and wished my happy bday. that was the first shock. the second shock was that they were the ones who made the call so as to inform my parents that they are coming. haha. foolproof plan man. gullible me was utterly tricked. so pms came and later we went to stay overnight at marcs house, play dota, drink abit den slp. den there was the class lunch in the afternn, which only few made it. sorry i cant make it at night =( imperial treasures dimsum was not bad.. after that went to meet my cousins for party world and some pool action before calling it a day. must say that i really enjoyed myself, both w my family and fwends.

shall now thank some ppl who played a part to make my 18th bday an unforgettable one.. =)

lay khim: for the first present i received during prom. thanx for the N-man, pink bandana and the forever fwends cup! shall try to fulfil wad yu asked for in ya letter! =D

my beloved cousins n sister: thanx for spending the afternn and night w me! and for the cool cap that would keep me head clothed for the next few months! haha its great to have a family consisting of yu guys. =D may our bonds stay strong! finally as i mentioned at party world, thank you for loving me =)

eunice: thanx for the royce choc! and for being one of my closest fwends during these few yrs =) must study hard okie.

alarice: best budd!! haha thanx for the meaningful book and the gift which i dunno if i shd accept. nonetheless appreciated ya effort in painstaking trying to choose a suitable pressie for me. though im not sure if i really deserve it.

ann: hey, thanx for ya government service envelope! haha i almost tot its another kinda junk mail until i saw the handwriting. anw thankx for the cd! though it was rather tough to read wads on it. haha. and thanx for specially calling me at night to wish me happy bdae!

pms: hey bros! really fortunate to have yu guys keepin me company for the past 2 yrs, not forgetting the special surprise that yu all planned for me. really caught me offguard. and thx for the rip curl flipflops! its white color! haha. really appreciated the effort to fake a class game n plan this thingy for me!

04s69: my beloved class! thanx for the flaming red total 90 street shoes! budden i think its kinda ex also, dun really deserve such a 'hou li' from the class lor. was rather gandong. thanx again, and sorry too let yu all po4 fei4.. hope we can have the cd done soon!

g5: hmm thanx for zoe and the sexy 'cup' cup.. haha. zoe followed me everywhere today lar. become my latest gf liao. as for the cup, ermm very thoughtful huh.. haha. but thanx anw.

pms+bum+qian+wei+pearl: thanx for coming for the class lunch.. was abit sad that many pple cant make it cos most are free at night... haix budden again, it was a nice meal in my opinion.. at least the food is qt good.. hehex.

wenjie, dexter, renie, yawen, wei-shan, eugene lim, huishan, yonghui, ethel, jiang chuan, jialing, daryl, khai lin, weisi, shiping, miao yu, ibnu, sihan: thanx for all ya well wishes! i shall try to be a good boy in the following year! =)

hmm, to those whom i forgot to mention, yu know its just cos my memory is fading me.. and i truly thank each n everyone of yu from within! =)

2005-12-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

masquerade 2005!

after a week of anticipation, suddenly it starts to feel so sian all over again.. haha. always happen whenever there is smth fun stuff coming along, den after that all that is left is reminiscence. sigh. anw shall try to put everything that happened ytd in words for future recollections. haha.
woke up rather early after like merely 5 hr of sleep, not forgetting watching man utd totally being raped by benfica especially in the 1st half. den meet nic at jurong mrt before going to do hair w marc n yuhang. dun really liked the new haircut budden suan le. haha. wad i regretted was buying the blue black dye on a moment on impulse n end up wasting abt 40 bucks while my hair is still black. bleh. i guess everyone learns from lessons. haha. marc did a nice white streaked head which took him abt 3 hr. holy! den went his house for some need for speed most wanted! haha thats one of the few games i would like to get my hands on to for the hols. hee.

left marcs place for marina mandarin at about 4, reaching the hotel at abt 5. mandarin is qt cool man, super nice hotel. just that the 'deluxe king' room is too small to fit abt 15 plus pple? haha. oh when i saw lide's hair at the life lobby i was really super shocked. haha. the carvings were qt nice actually, budden abit too extreme.. hehe. especially when yu only do one side. den after that we changed and tok cock. oohh eugene has a super nice 69 bracelet from bugis. haha think everyone of us shd get one as a memoir. eugenes biker outfit was rather nice. but it cost like 300 plus?? haha. as for the girls, their dress suits them rather well i guess, n they looked better after their makeover and stuff, mega eyes, mega eyelashes n stuff. haha. den marcs suit looks like hed getting married. heh. korn looks like a young businessman with his paixi razor n shades. haha.

took a van to ritz at abt 7. reached there to see qt a lot pple there alr. it was bustling. almost couldnt recognise lk after her extreme makeover. den there was other 69 ppl there, like jz, mj, jonny. den everyone started to take photos. n more photos. mingjie came too to take photos w us.. thanx man! den celine also came.. the dinner started soon after. the food on the overall was quite shitty, small portion n not that nice also. n i heard the food itself make up 70 bucks of the 80 that we paid. gotta be kidding man. but most of the time it looked more like a phototaking session rather than a dinner lor. haha. best part of the show during the dinner was probably contesting for 'the entertainer' award lar. haha. lide did the numa dance in front of a roaring crowd. haha. was luffing so hard till my whole body kp shaking after the performance. must really thank him for being such sporting lar. before the show we told him he will sure be doing the dance on stage. haha. though i think he dun really enjoy it, but at least he is sporting enuff to do it to entertain the crowd. haha thoanx bro! other than that, kian yong and jingmin won the prom king n queen award respectively. den chian, ann n yuhang performed the last item of the show, which made the crowd really high. the trio really do have potential n hopefully they continue to bring great performances for us! also, huishan lost her phone, which sorta dampened the spirit. =(

after dinner we went to club! qt a nervy experience for me, n more so for pearlyn i guess. haha. being underage kids, we tried to bluff our way by telling them we din bring ic along, but that indian guy v strict. after dilly dallying for some time, we chose a right time when he wasnt around and test the bouncer. i went in almost effortlessly.. haha. budden pearlyn's one was really nerve-wrecking. haha. she used qianyi's ezlink. n i couldnt see where they looked alike. but she did managed to get in after all, so thats great. haha. din really danced much there, just go to see see look look, afterall its a first experience. haha. had a couple of shots, which made me really sleepy after tt. pple like eugene really danced until he is like crazy lor. haha. even ppl like cliff n bumin n yonghui head to the dancefloor! haha. think only huishan stayed at the seat throughout..

after which we went lau pa sat for supper, cos was really famished due to the alcohol n terrible ritz food and stuff. din eat alot too. was too tired n broke. haha. sat there n crapped abit until like 5 den pms walked back to marina mandarin, which was qt far in my opinion. haha. by the time reached the hotel think near 6 liao. den like v gong diao alr. haha. tried hard to slp n finally get like an hr of deep sleep or smth. haha. actually i feel qt bad that we guys are occupying the beds while the girls were sitting beside it. haha budden too tired to really think of it at the point in time. =X

everything have to come to an end, same goes for prom. anw it was really a memorable one which i hope to cherish, and really like to thank the following pple. 69, pms (we din get to take a pms photo!), co mates, 4a mates, bowling ppl and all the fwends ive made in hc for the last 2 yrs. its becos of yu guys that proved that my choice to go hc was right afterall =)

2005-12-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

hmmm i realised i din blog for qt long, but anw i finished my papers! my bells of freedom finally finally rang about 3 days ago. anw im working for std chartered marathon for this wk and its hell loads of shit to do. packing n unpacking(due to smart leadership by a certain someone), den bringing thousands of goodie bags from place A to B and back to A(again due to smart leadership) and stuff like getting scolded by freaking customers when its not freaking our fault. and scolded by the event organisers too. this is bullshit! budden for the money (and fringe benefits), no choice lar. left 2 days only. when i get my peanuts money(literally peanuts), den i can go shop for prom liao. hehex. still haven decided how to dye the hair, but got some lobangs liao i guess. hahah. the girls in class spent like 150+++ on their hair lar. ouch! thats equal to 5 days of shit n more shit! haha. my legs are damn sore n i can barely keep my eyes open le. next blog shd be abt prom bah. tata.

2005-11-20T00:34:00.000+08:00

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine as children do.

It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

no prize for guessing where these lines come from =)

2005-10-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

I have walked all alone

On these streets, I call home

Streets of hope, streets of fear

Through the sidewalk cracks

Time dissapears

I was lost, on my knees

Only Eve hugged a field

As i choked back the tears

There's a silent scream no-one could hear

So far away from everything, you know it's true

Something inside that makes you know what you've got to do

[Chorus]

Ring the bells, ring them loud

Let them ring here and now

Just reach out and ring the bells of freedom

When your world's crashing down like you've lost every round

Stand your ground

And ring the bells of freedom

Up the steps of the church

Through the fields in the dirt

In the dark I have seen

That the sun still shines for the one who believed

So far away, so full of doubt, you needed proof

Just close your eyes, and hear the sound inside of you

my bell of freedom rings on 28th November 2005, 1700hr.

2005-10-24T22:58:00.000+08:00

being a university student for a day!

today's study wasnt really fruitful due to interruptions and long travelling time, but it was satisfying in the sense that i get to experience being a nus student for a day.. haha reached nus at around 11 with guan. from our outfit, we can really pass off as uni students man. anw the uni is bustling with life lar, and the environment was rather pleasant too. went to the library to study. nus de study area is really much much bigger than rr lar. smells better too. den they have discussion rooms too.. very conducive, provided yu dun tok and stuff.. den got wireless too.. mebbe next time can bring my laptop.
den the canteen food there was mother cheap.. like 1.80 kind yu know! hc also cannot get lar! supposedly outsiders have to pay 20% more, but then again, as we look super like uni students, we get the students price! super tan dio. but i think the arts n social science canteen is better than the business sch canteen where i had a cheese sausage for 1.90 when the hor fun is only 1.80. den again the hor fun taste like crap, so bad decision made.
din get to see my angel at nus today. she claimed she was busy from day till 10pm. uni life really so stressful ah.. but we got to see some seniors like sinhui n my angels 'bf' meilin, though i think they din see me, but think they saw korn n lide. shiping yu owe me a tour at nus! haha.
oh anw jingmins cousin looks freaking familiar. dunno zai na li seen b4. at first tot was andrews fwend or smth, budden dun really think so now. my memory is fading sia.
oh den today also went to help my cousin w her math. hope its useful to her.
oh den liren's fwend called viknesh is a damn funny guy.. pity we dun get enuff interaction w pple from other races these days, but they are really nice guys and easy to mix around with!

2005-10-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

today was a good day musically.
1) went for a jamming session since dunno how long.
2) saw this super super damn damn very very absolutely nice oil painting of pata n hide playing guitar together. the studio owner's fwend drew for him one. absolutely class. depicted the x japan spirit man. feels like i just witness their last live de gan jue. dunno how much that painting is worth. i dun mind getting it for my bday! haha. think a few thousands bucks enuff?
3) listened to art of life carefully for the first time. was reading this article ART OF LIVE: A STUDY IN X JAPAN'S LEGACY (http://www.chaoticempire.org/artoflife.html) den listening to it at the same time. took me half a hr. finally appreciated this masterpiece. really like a poem lar. yoshiki damn talented.

2005-10-15T12:21:00.000+08:00

7th jan 2006.
thats my enlistment date. damn sian its like how early lar. only like one month plus after As to enjoy.. dun think got time to go work alr.. haix. but at least i know eugene same day as me so not that sian. at least wont be lonely on the boat ride to tekong... so now got 5 ppl in 69 who got their dates le. waiting to see if got any one else same as me. den increase the probability of having someone i know in the same unit or smth.
heard jz is super sway cos his enlistment is on 8th dec, which zun zun falls on prom... dunno how he is gonna appeal liddat. imagine yu go tekong in the morning, den shave hair, den come out in the evening for prom... even more sian diao rite... but i think jonny is the most sway in 69.
lide shd count himself lucky in that sense since he is going in early den he shd be able to come out for prom, albeit the fact that he is attending prom hairless, at least the top in that sense.. lolx.
haix but im still very sian that mine is still considered qt early leh. ppl can at least even a few months of colorful hair days after As lor. =(((((

2005-10-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

about a chinese high junior.

went kap to study in the afternn with dex today. post renovation kap looks really nice n refreshin, just that the seats are like joined tgt and the table is too small. well, there was this chinese high guy sitting behind me, pda-ing with his nygh gurl. as we share the same seat (cos the seats were joined back facing back), i had an uncomfortable time cos both of them were leaning against the seat... den i was telling dex.. guang tian hua ri, shi feng ri xia.. haha kinda forgot wad it really means, but it has a bad connotation.

den dex told me, in the morning he was with another gurl. haha ji pro yi xia. considering i dun see any part of him attractive, unless yu count super cold weird sense of humour an attraction. but the gurl not say v attractive also, so mebbe they click. hahahahaha. after dex left, i took over his seat so i can finally lean back and feel more comfy. so i ended facing them and that bloody guy was one hell of a noisy freak lar. making funny noises, doing weird actions, laugh hysterically and stuff while i was doing my case study... it was so obvious that his gurl doesnt seemed amused at all, but he just keeps ranting nonstop. think he wanna seek attention or smth..

fcuk lar wanna show off ya monkey talents go join the star idol or wadeva lar. yu can tok in kap but please be considerate and know ya limits. not everyone is interested in how yu entertain ya girl (if shes entertained in the first place). den dun touch here touch there in public in ya sch uniform lar. go somewhere discrete or smth.. really feel like going over and telling him not to disgrace the chinese high school uniform lor.

damn dulanx. actually the girl also stupid, really wanna let him luan luan mo lar. haix. dao de lun sang sia. end up i left after doing my case study, which i felt was qt rubbish towards the end.

2005-10-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

WU YUE TIAN! WU YUE TIAN! WU YUE TIAN!

haha i know i shd be mugging my ass off for As now, since i did rather disappointingly for the prelims. really screw myself upside down. budden since mayday was in town today, i decided might as well take a few hrs break go enjoy their music. they got this autograph session outside hello orchard. bad location i must say, damn small place n like in the middle of the road n stuff. but mayday damn shiok lar. though only performed like 5 songs, budden the atmosphere was there.. thats wad a rock band shd be like. must have constant interaction w the audience n stuff. really shiok. kok chong bot the tix to their final home concert le.. so hopefully can have a great time then. 10th december! anw they started off damn late, almost an hr later than the scheduled 230 slot. lucky the jammin session was cancelled today, den can enjoy good music. anw their new songs are all v shiok.. recommend ya guan, mai lai luan n lian ai ING.. must go n listen.. damn relax and comfortable..

hmm actually i think i got smth else to say but i forgot le. oh the host mention that mayday is asia's no.1 rock band.. haha. in my opinion they are very zai, but mebbe not no. 1 yet. cos asia includes countries like japan where jrock is super cool and damn addictive.. not forgetting hk also got the legendary Beyond, who is coming to town next week.. hehex. but in taiwan i agree that mayday is really no. 1!